As i said before, things went into hyperdrive when July settled in. June was the typical settling in phase where doctors/professors slipped in a quiz or two, letting you gain a solid foothold on studying again.
BOOM!
Then July came in.
Every other week we had quizzes and major exams, and it came to a point where you just couldnt study as much as you wanted to because you were dead tired.
Major exams that happened this month: Anatomy, Physiology, Biochemistry, and this week would be Community Medicine and Bioethics.
Seriously, of all the major exams that came and went, Anatomy was probably the most mind boggling thing I encountered since our freshmen orientation with the mock exams.
I prepared for that exam like everyone has prepared for the oncoming zombie apocalpyse.
I kid you not. I spent a majority of my weekdays + 80% of my weekend reviewing everything and I was kind of pumped for the exam already.
Day of the exam, 7am in the morning, my dorm mates and I came out of our rooms at exactly the same time with blank faces, silently staring at each other, when, very quietly, one whispered... oh my g*d, I dont know anything.
All of us kinda went into a crazed panic since the exam was a bout 3 hours away.
GROUP STUDY NOW!
Nobody brushed their teeth, fixed their hair, or took out the morning glories scattered all over, we got our stuff out and went to one room and started reviewing each other like there was no tomorrow.
We spent two hours studying, took a bath, then went for the exam.
Here we go.
About an hour later, I was feeling pretty good about the results. But within a few minutes, panic set in again as we prepared for the practical exams for that afternoon.
For the practical exams, they set up 80 stations in the laboratory where there would be around 65-70 microscopes set up with specimens, around 5 pictures, and 5 resting stations. Every 20 seconds we a buzzer would sound out and everyone had to move to the next station.
This type of exam gives you an adrenalin rush. It was awesome and at the same time, depressing.
Within 20 minutes or so, we finished all 80 questions and headed out the laboratory. And everyone was kind of high with the rush. We headed out, ate, and made merry while doomsday/judgement day waited silently.
About 2-3 days, results came out. And I failed both the theoretical and practical. And so did 80% of the batch.
It was kind of comforting to know that, but deep inside, I was depressed because I studied my ass off and I still failed.
Good thing that they lowered the passing rate a little, and I passed both, but, it still frustrated me.
I will not be an average/ mediocre doctor. I will study my ass off, and one day I will top the exams.
Shit just got real.
