My Life as a Med Student and the things in between. Animo La Salle!!!
Monday, December 15, 2014
Saturday, December 13, 2014
ADMISSION REQUIREMENTS FOR COURSE AND SCHOLARSHIPS SY 2015-2016
Hi guys, much better if you could callthe office dor any further inquiries. :) just look for ms. Wendy. :)
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Preview for JFT 2014
Happening this Thursday and Fridaaaaay!
You can visit the college of medicine's fb page for more info. :)
https://www.facebook.com/dlshsicmsc
Saturday, November 8, 2014
When the Med Student Gets Sick
Hello, its been awhile, and I have to say, with everything that's been going on, I almost completely forgot about this site.
Im in 3rd year right now, and half way done, 6 months away from junior internship, and dead tired already.
These past 6 months have been crazy hard, like 2nd year times a bazillion. Your mind and body are both stretched to their limits until you start breaking down.
Considering that our profession is all about health, a large number of us med students are very very unhealthy. I got sick so many times this year that I've had progressive migraines that would last for days, everyday nausea, stress, gastritis, flu like symptoms, dengue, dishidrotic eczema, Polycystic ovarian syndrome, a viral flu that caused me to break out into these really weird rashes on my hands and feet...
And all this time, I was thinking...what the hell is going on??
***I know its wrong but, this is a blog, and I have to be honest with the things I say, hahahahaha...
I started reading up on my symptoms, trying to diagnose, manage, and treat myself. And just to make sure, I would follow up at the college clinic to make sure that I wasnt just making up stuff about my illness. What surprised me the most was that even the doctors that checked up on me werent always a 100% sure of what I had. One diagnosed me with German Measles, and I was completely freaking out because the weekend before that, I attended a family reunion and was exposed to kids of all ages, and 2 pregnant ladies. (German measles is highly contagious, and absolutely dangerous to the pregnant women since it can cause abnormalities and even death to the fetus). Additional psychological stress. The doctor made me undergo a blood test just to double check. As I was wandering through the corridors of the hospital, I became extremely wary of my surroundings, looking out for other kids, and pregnant women so that I wouldnt spread the measles around. It took me 2 hours of waiting before I got another doctor to check me yet again.
I cant explain to you how relieved I was when the doctor said I had some kind of viral flu, or two that caused me to break out into two different rashes, and was possibly caused by dengue also. I didnt know it was possible, but they said I was doing better, and all I had to do was rest, increase my intake of fluids, and drink the occasional paracetamol if I didnt feel well. Now imagine that kind of experience with your patient.
Then with the different illnesses, you start getting really psychologically disturbed, annoyed, and depressed about whats going on with you. Thats the crazy thing with getting sick. At one point, I think i had some kind of gastritis or something, it felt like I was being punched in the stomach every 5 minutes, ( i think this was after a very stressful hell week or something) I got the wind knocked out of me, and I could barely stand up. As I was curled up in the fetal position in my dorm, I was thinking, shucks, Im dying because of stress, what a way to be a doctor.
You may be thinking, why didnt I just ask help from my friends at the dorm, or go to the hospital to have myself checked, well, I did. And there was little that they could do to keep me symptom free. They did give me meds, prescriptions, changing meds, self medication, everything.
At that moment in time, you start to see how valuable your health is to you. And you start thinking yet again...at my level, with most of the things I learned already about medicine, and I still feel this panic at not being able to control my own health, how would it feel for the regular patient who has suddenly been stricken down by an undetermined illness or disease?
If I was in their position, I would be frickin down right scared. I'd fear form my life, my health, my family, my job, and everything else.
Then I remembered. This will be my future job. Its not just about prescribing the drugs, listing down different diagnostic tests for the patient to spend thouands of pesos on, and get rich at the end of the day.
You are treating a person. A person with fears for his/her life, a person with several family members relying on them, and becoming uncertain about their future because the head of their family is sick with something they have no control over.
In these moments that the med student/ doctor becomes the patient, you realize, sh*t... I need to study more.
Im in 3rd year right now, and half way done, 6 months away from junior internship, and dead tired already.
These past 6 months have been crazy hard, like 2nd year times a bazillion. Your mind and body are both stretched to their limits until you start breaking down.
Considering that our profession is all about health, a large number of us med students are very very unhealthy. I got sick so many times this year that I've had progressive migraines that would last for days, everyday nausea, stress, gastritis, flu like symptoms, dengue, dishidrotic eczema, Polycystic ovarian syndrome, a viral flu that caused me to break out into these really weird rashes on my hands and feet...
And all this time, I was thinking...what the hell is going on??
***I know its wrong but, this is a blog, and I have to be honest with the things I say, hahahahaha...
I started reading up on my symptoms, trying to diagnose, manage, and treat myself. And just to make sure, I would follow up at the college clinic to make sure that I wasnt just making up stuff about my illness. What surprised me the most was that even the doctors that checked up on me werent always a 100% sure of what I had. One diagnosed me with German Measles, and I was completely freaking out because the weekend before that, I attended a family reunion and was exposed to kids of all ages, and 2 pregnant ladies. (German measles is highly contagious, and absolutely dangerous to the pregnant women since it can cause abnormalities and even death to the fetus). Additional psychological stress. The doctor made me undergo a blood test just to double check. As I was wandering through the corridors of the hospital, I became extremely wary of my surroundings, looking out for other kids, and pregnant women so that I wouldnt spread the measles around. It took me 2 hours of waiting before I got another doctor to check me yet again.
I cant explain to you how relieved I was when the doctor said I had some kind of viral flu, or two that caused me to break out into two different rashes, and was possibly caused by dengue also. I didnt know it was possible, but they said I was doing better, and all I had to do was rest, increase my intake of fluids, and drink the occasional paracetamol if I didnt feel well. Now imagine that kind of experience with your patient.
Then with the different illnesses, you start getting really psychologically disturbed, annoyed, and depressed about whats going on with you. Thats the crazy thing with getting sick. At one point, I think i had some kind of gastritis or something, it felt like I was being punched in the stomach every 5 minutes, ( i think this was after a very stressful hell week or something) I got the wind knocked out of me, and I could barely stand up. As I was curled up in the fetal position in my dorm, I was thinking, shucks, Im dying because of stress, what a way to be a doctor.
You may be thinking, why didnt I just ask help from my friends at the dorm, or go to the hospital to have myself checked, well, I did. And there was little that they could do to keep me symptom free. They did give me meds, prescriptions, changing meds, self medication, everything.
At that moment in time, you start to see how valuable your health is to you. And you start thinking yet again...at my level, with most of the things I learned already about medicine, and I still feel this panic at not being able to control my own health, how would it feel for the regular patient who has suddenly been stricken down by an undetermined illness or disease?
If I was in their position, I would be frickin down right scared. I'd fear form my life, my health, my family, my job, and everything else.
Then I remembered. This will be my future job. Its not just about prescribing the drugs, listing down different diagnostic tests for the patient to spend thouands of pesos on, and get rich at the end of the day.
You are treating a person. A person with fears for his/her life, a person with several family members relying on them, and becoming uncertain about their future because the head of their family is sick with something they have no control over.
In these moments that the med student/ doctor becomes the patient, you realize, sh*t... I need to study more.
Saturday, June 21, 2014
DLSHSI College of Medicine TRANSCEND
Having hard time reviewing for exams? or retaining knowledge? or even want to take medical challenges to assess what you have learned so far??
Learn, Relearn, and INTEGRATE.
Join Transcend, or attend our activities which enhances your own medical education and experience.
Hey guys, iniviting everyone, even those who aren't from DLSHSI, to like the Transcend page and participate in all our online activities. :)
Learn, Relearn, and INTEGRATE.
Join Transcend, or attend our activities which enhances your own medical education and experience.
Hey guys, iniviting everyone, even those who aren't from DLSHSI, to like the Transcend page and participate in all our online activities. :)
https://www.facebook.com/transcend.dlshsi
We have a lot in store for you guys, with journal sharing, daily board review questions, medica breakthroughs and updates, mini cases, challenging, weekly cases, and more!
About
Transcend aims to enhance medical knowledge and critical thinking of the students of De La Salle Health Sciences Institute—College of Medicine.
Transcend's Mission-Vision
VISION
Transcend envisions to be a catalyst in enhancing medical knowledge and critical thinking of students of the De La Salle Health Science Institute College of Medicine. It sees the DLSHSI-CM atmosphere to be more vibrant and interactive especially in acquisition of medical knowledge and skills and nurturing of students to become competent and virtuous physicians.
MISSION
In the spirit of life-long learning, Transcend is committed to
spearheading activities that are integrative, sustainable and optimal towards learning and understanding, which will be met through collaborative efforts of its members. Transcend, through its programs, shall promote and foster La Sallian values in molding and equipping the students to become outstanding movers in the medical field and contributors to the society.
VISION
Transcend envisions to be a catalyst in enhancing medical knowledge and critical thinking of students of the De La Salle Health Science Institute College of Medicine. It sees the DLSHSI-CM atmosphere to be more vibrant and interactive especially in acquisition of medical knowledge and skills and nurturing of students to become competent and virtuous physicians.
MISSION
In the spirit of life-long learning, Transcend is committed to
spearheading activities that are integrative, sustainable and optimal towards learning and understanding, which will be met through collaborative efforts of its members. Transcend, through its programs, shall promote and foster La Sallian values in molding and equipping the students to become outstanding movers in the medical field and contributors to the society.
Sunday, May 4, 2014
2nd Year and 3rd Year Books Price List
Got this from a classmate of mine. You'll get to know him pretty well in Medicine. :) watch out for him. :)) Thanks Wish Upon A Dead Star!
Never Become This Person in Med School
Im guilty of doing this in my first and 2nd year. When i read this, I realized that this was a big big BIG NO NO.
You will definitely encounter at least one person who will do this when you guys start talking about grades, academic standing, failing, the evals results, remediations, and danger subjects.
I used to do this, and I experienced it also, where you guys try to one-up each other with how hard things are getting. Its tiring, and it makes both of you feel bad at the end of the conversation, eith one feeling like such a jack ass for having said something so hurtful, while the other feels ashamed for having thought their problems were relevant but ended up being trivial.
Just in case some of you still dont know what im talking about (hahaha, sometimes i think i talk normal, turns out nobody understands me...), here's an example (this is just an example, its a mash up of several conversations i've had, and i have also acted like X one time or another...)
X: fuuuuu, my grades are horrible, i failed this exam, and that exam, and i failed the quiz...
Me: awwww me too! I failed this and that, blah blah blah
X: at least you passed this subject, i have it worse than you because im failing all my lab exams, and all my evals in this subject
Me: well im also failing in this and that, and i got picked on by a prof, blahblahblah
X: i dont think it can get any worse than my problems, im depressed
Me: OMG! Me too, im sooo depressed
X: i dont see what you have to be depressed about, your problems aren't as bad as mine...
Me: no, everything's gonna be ok, cheer up, you're gonna pass all the subjects, dont give up!
X: thats easy for you to say, you're not the one experiencing this. You dont know what it feels like.
...so on and so forth.
Just remember, everybody has their own struggles, and each carries a different weight of their own. What might be trivial to you may be the unclimable mountain for the other.
Monday, April 28, 2014
Updates on DLSHSI Scholarship Results For College of Medicine
May 12 update: most likely results will come out at the end of this week or next week. Just called the admissions department and they said that the they're still discussing it.
For incoming 2nd to 4th years, maybe end of the week because the departments just submitted the grades.
Will keep you guys posted. :)
Does Your Med School Really Matter?
Does your school really matter when it comes to Medicine?
Maybe. Maybe not.
I had one such encounter with a friend, and this is how it went...
X: hey, how is med school?
Me: im doing good, but this 2nd year was really really difficult for me. I struggled a lot with most of the subjects.
X: i dont think so. I think its easier for you.
Me: ( kind of confused with her statement, but continued with the small talk) i guess, the level of difficulty is different for you and me since im in 2nd year, and you're in (X) year.
X: No, i mean, its easier at your school, unlike our school which is really competitive and our performance in the boards are better.
Me: (struggling to control my anger, but i just smiled) why do you say its easier at our school?
X: a friend said so. You know how it is with your school.
The conversation went on for several minutes with X continuing on with her condescending bashing. This was a friend, and i had no idea where this was coming from. It all started off with her just asking how i was doing, and then boom, roundhouse kick to my dignity and to my school.
I defended my school by saying that the teaching and the doctor lecturers are just the same as in any medical school, and i dont see how she could say it was easier at dlshsi. I cant say anything else about her school because I've never been there, and I know nothing else about the quality of teaching and whatnot, except for their impeccable passing rate in the physicians licensure. Ok fine, you guys are better in terms of performance, but in the end does that really matter? They'd say that only the nonperforming schools would use a lame excuse like, " depende na yan sa student/doctor" (it all depends on the student/ doctor) or "wala naman yan sa school e, nasa estudyante na yan" ( its not the school. Its the student) .
I believe in both, plus the fact that HSI is a very good medical school. It might not be attaining the best of the passing rates, or isnt at the level of UP, PLM, UST, ATENEO, CIM, and the like, but its getting there. And what matters to me at the end of the day is that i become a doctor.
A patient may ask what school i went to, and might prefer other doctors with a different medical school background, but in the end, the patient will always come back to the doctor who treated them well. Treatment meaning not just the actual diagnosis, laboratories, medications, but the overall care and concern for the person.
Your school will give you an edge in certain areas, but its up to you to determine what kind of doctor you want to be.
Like X, her statements are not a judgement of her school, but her CHARACTER. i still admire her school, and every other medical school out there who are making a gigantic effort to mold and develop us into competent, excellent, caring doctors, but what you say and do can only reflect yourself.
All the medical schools are on the same playing field, with the same curriculum, same schedule, same content, same textbooks, etc. So where does it differ? Well, The doctors who teach you, and the students. The doctors are all excellent, with years and years of experience, and a lot actually teach in several different medical schools. So, its down to the students. What kind of student are you?
Back to one point of my friend concerning the passing rates of my school and her school. What is the difference between two doctors who passed the Physician's licensure exam but are of two different medical schools?
NONE.
Yup, NONE. because both of you are FREAKIN DOCTORS NOW. Both of you passed the very same exam, with the same gruelling effort, blood, sweat, and tears. I dont care if you came from this school, or that school, but if you act like an a**hole about it, i might as well slap the living daylights out of you.
But i wont.
What you said is a reflection of your character, and no prestigious school will be able to make up for your lack of it.
So, to you X, and to many many more others like you, I hope you realize we are not competitors when it comes to taking care of our patients. Our patients deserve better than that.
Update: this is an excellent post from an awesome awesome site The Importance of Medical School Reputation at Anastomosed.wordpress.com. :)
Monday, April 21, 2014
The Waiting is Killing Me- Scholarship and Promo Boards
Just called the admissions office, still no results for the scholarship.
Promotional boards are coming out today, im gonna go crazy if they extend this any longer.
This perfectly sums up what im feeling.
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Noblest then...Noblest now, and Noblest Forever will be...
Saw this on of our transcriptions, i dont really know who wrote it though.
The Extra Push
This hpened at the beginning of the school year when i just started failing some of my exams. I was feeling down inthe dumps, getting all whiny and stuff about how hard it all was. Then my little brother told me this.
You gotta love family.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
Tuesday, March 25, 2014
Stuff You Need for 2nd Year
At the beginning of my 2nd year, I heard from some classmates that we had to buy some instruments to be used for our Physical Diagnosis class, along with other books and whatnot. During the course of my 2nd year, I realized, you don't really need to buy it all.
So here are some of the things that you should have, or at least save up for:
1. Otoscope and Opthalmoscope
This is the priciest of the bunch, and if you cant really afford it right now, you can just borrow from your classmates during the practical exam in Physical diagnosis.
Price: from Php3,500-12,000.00
Brand: Welch Allyn (super gaduper expensive, only buy it IF you think you want to go into Optha or something as your specialty~ advice from one doctor).
You can also go for generic ones (made in China, these are the ones that can be found in Bambang, Tayuman, Manila areas), they're pretty nice, solid, compact, dont get broken easily, and costs about Php3,500- 4,500. Discrepancies in price are from the stores you buy them. At one store in Dasma, they were selling it for 4k, but in Bambang, I asked a friend to buy me one, it was about 3,500.
Question: Should I buy a brand new one or 2nd hand? Much better if its brand new, at least its yours, and with 2nd hand ones, you cant really guarantee its 100% functional.
2. Stethoscope
Equally pricey, they would ask you to have your own, but you can always borrow from a classmate for practical exams. I recommend getting your own since this is a staple in any doctor's handbag. MUST.HAVE.ONE.
Price: Anywhere from Php 800 (for generic ones) to Php10,000 (specialized Littman Steths)
Brand: You can get the cheaper ones like Baxtel which can also include a BP set, but during our practicals, some doctors commented that having a Littman is better since it has a better quality when listening to heart sounds, lung sounds, and the like. The Littman I have cost about Php 4,000. With additional costs, you can customize it by color (blue,red, pink, etc, and add on finishing touches like bronze, rainbow finish, etc, and have your name engraved on it). Online sellers are very reliable naman, and for sure, some upper classmen will sell you brand new ones too.
3. BP Set
Better to borrow it nalang, but I still bought my own so I could use it at home on my parents and relatives. Hahahaha
Price: Anywhere from Php500- Php 1,500.
Brand: They say Baxtel is good. There's a Welch Allyn brand one, but very very expensive. Couldnt afford it since I focused on the Steth and Otoscope. There's little difference in terms of quality (based on what doctors and classmates said) between Baxtel and Welch so I went for the cheaper one.
4. Neuro Set
Sounds expensive right? Hahahaha Again, you can borrow these during practicals, but, its nice to have your own. This includes
So here are some of the things that you should have, or at least save up for:
1. Otoscope and Opthalmoscope
This is the priciest of the bunch, and if you cant really afford it right now, you can just borrow from your classmates during the practical exam in Physical diagnosis.
Price: from Php3,500-12,000.00
Brand: Welch Allyn (super gaduper expensive, only buy it IF you think you want to go into Optha or something as your specialty~ advice from one doctor).
You can also go for generic ones (made in China, these are the ones that can be found in Bambang, Tayuman, Manila areas), they're pretty nice, solid, compact, dont get broken easily, and costs about Php3,500- 4,500. Discrepancies in price are from the stores you buy them. At one store in Dasma, they were selling it for 4k, but in Bambang, I asked a friend to buy me one, it was about 3,500.
Question: Should I buy a brand new one or 2nd hand? Much better if its brand new, at least its yours, and with 2nd hand ones, you cant really guarantee its 100% functional.
2. Stethoscope
Equally pricey, they would ask you to have your own, but you can always borrow from a classmate for practical exams. I recommend getting your own since this is a staple in any doctor's handbag. MUST.HAVE.ONE.
Price: Anywhere from Php 800 (for generic ones) to Php10,000 (specialized Littman Steths)
Brand: You can get the cheaper ones like Baxtel which can also include a BP set, but during our practicals, some doctors commented that having a Littman is better since it has a better quality when listening to heart sounds, lung sounds, and the like. The Littman I have cost about Php 4,000. With additional costs, you can customize it by color (blue,red, pink, etc, and add on finishing touches like bronze, rainbow finish, etc, and have your name engraved on it). Online sellers are very reliable naman, and for sure, some upper classmen will sell you brand new ones too.
3. BP Set
Better to borrow it nalang, but I still bought my own so I could use it at home on my parents and relatives. Hahahaha
Price: Anywhere from Php500- Php 1,500.
Brand: They say Baxtel is good. There's a Welch Allyn brand one, but very very expensive. Couldnt afford it since I focused on the Steth and Otoscope. There's little difference in terms of quality (based on what doctors and classmates said) between Baxtel and Welch so I went for the cheaper one.
4. Neuro Set
Sounds expensive right? Hahahaha Again, you can borrow these during practicals, but, its nice to have your own. This includes
- Neurohammer- costs about Php 75-150, just get the simple one
- Tuning Fork- doctors prefer the one thats 512 Hz instead of 256. And dont get the ones with the special head on it, the simple ones will do
- Jaeger Chart- about 25 pesos
- Snellen chart- but this is usually bought by group
- Pen Light- any will do, costs about Php 100-200
- Tape Measure
- Pinhole Occluder- no need to buy this one, you can make your own by getting a piece of paper and poking a hole in it. Voila! If you want to buy one, i think it costs about 30 pesos, but you only use it once or twice.
5. Books
I learned my lesson from last year, I didn't read my books as much as I wanted to, but I should have. Instead, this year, I just bought the baby books (companion books of the actual textbooks-very concise, short, easy to carry around).
The only ones I bought were Robbins and Cotran's Patho Companion Book, Williams Obstetrics, Harrison's Manual of Medicine, Schwartz Surgery. I bought these all on Pinoy.md :)
This year, you'll have to buy manuals in Pharmacology, Microbiology, Physical Diagnosis and Pathology. You must must must buy it because they dont allow photocopies. Each manual costs Php 500. Pharma has 2 manuals, Micro has 2.
The reason I didnt use books that much this year was that the sheer volume of info was too much to go through in books (Im a pretty slow reader), and there's just not enough time to give my undivided attention to all the subjects. What happened instead was I relied more on past transcriptions, transcriptions from my classmates, and the lecture itself. If I didnt understand a certain topic, I'd go back to the book, or ebook, and other online sources like Medscape. For this, I invested in a brand new printer and paper.
Some will also sell you their past transcriptions. They offered one set of past tranx which cost about Php 3 or 4,000. It was a good thing that I didnt buy it because some of the lectures had different doctors, and so the content also changed. What I did buy was a stack of the upper year's past exams/ evaluations. These past exams are pretty vital since they can help you determine key points that you need to focus on while studying.
Monday, March 24, 2014
I AM A SURGEON
Saw this on FB, just wanted to share this. :)
After all the brouhaha caused by the BIR ads, this video is for all doctors, surgeons and not.
May we remember, and others understand, that we chose this vocation not to be heroes, not to be saviors, not to be glorified, not to be rich or famous, and certainly not to impress; but because we know that we can endure giving a big part of ourselves to make that difference the world needs despite everything that life throws at us. Just like a medic in a crossfire, no circumstance, no bully nor ad can hinder us from what we are supposed to do.
Because we are doctors. That's what we have trained for... plus we believe in karma."
It can be watched here: I AM A SURGEON.
After all the brouhaha caused by the BIR ads, this video is for all doctors, surgeons and not.
May we remember, and others understand, that we chose this vocation not to be heroes, not to be saviors, not to be glorified, not to be rich or famous, and certainly not to impress; but because we know that we can endure giving a big part of ourselves to make that difference the world needs despite everything that life throws at us. Just like a medic in a crossfire, no circumstance, no bully nor ad can hinder us from what we are supposed to do.
Because we are doctors. That's what we have trained for... plus we believe in karma."
It can be watched here: I AM A SURGEON.
Saturday, March 22, 2014
DLSHSI Scholarship Application Ongoing for SY 2014-2015
Hey guys, here's a sched of the application periods as well as the guidelines. :)
hope this helps! Good luck and God bless!
hope this helps! Good luck and God bless!
Sunday, March 2, 2014
Aaaaaand....I AM BACK FROM THE DEAD!
Hello friends and anons!
I’m so so sorry if it took me this long to write again.
This 2nd year was just...tiring.
No. "Tiring" just doesn't cut it.
Exhausting. Draining. Spent. Consumed. Jaded. Tired.
Weary.
It’s true what the upper years told me during my 1st
year.
Enjoy it while you can.
The first year in Medicine was a stroll in the park. This
year was a stroll through the gates of Mordor.
I wouldn’t doubt it for a second if the upper years told me that the 3rd
year (and succeeding years in Medicine) would just get worse.
The reason why it took me so long to write again was that
I was struggling. The subjects were harder,
the workload/ study load was immense, the lecturers were even more
strict, and, everything was just happening too fast.
This year, exams were all held in one week (most of the
time). Unlike last year where one subject would be scheduled on Monday, another
on Friday, or whatever random day they picked, this year, everything happened
in a week. Usually, on one day, there would be at least 2 subjects; one in the
morning, one in the afternoon. It would have been fine for just one day, but,
by the 2nd day, you’re just waiting for the week end.
I was studying my ass of as usual, and I thought that it
was enough to get even a decent grade in that particular subject.
Exams were done. Results came out. Voila. I failed.
I got depressed, I went on an eating binge, and threw
myself a small pity party to celebrate my failure.
And just like that, the party just started.
I failed another exam. And then another. And then
another. Sometimes, some of my exams
would just resurrect from the dead due to the MPL. I’d rejoice in that, but, I
knew that I wasn’t doing as well as I should.
That’s one of the things I noticed with these failures.
They tend to haul you down, make you rearrange your priorities and alter your
view on what’s enough. Your standards get lower, you sacrifice quality for
quantity, and you just keep grabbing at loose ends and find yourself empty
handed after it all.
Before, I studied to get to the top, challenging myself to just do better. Now, its more of study to get that passing
grade. Even before the exam is done, I would be computing for the MPL (adjusted
score) at the margins of my paper. I’d
look over my answers, make a quick calculation, and breathe a sigh of relief
when I see that I know enough answers to save me for this exam. Quietly, I say
a little prayer, and then promise to myself that I’d study harder next time to
redeem the really bad grade.
And then it happens again. You get caught in the vicious
cycle of just trying to get by. Sometimes you do, sometimes you don’t. But
ultimately, what happens is you just get stuck doing just enough.
Im not saying that if you keep failing, it means you’re
not learning, or you’re lazy, or whatever.
It’s the effort that went behind it. If you poured
everything into learning and studying for that exam and and still came up
short, it just means that you have to try harder. Or smarter.
When I failed my exams, I tried studying harder. I stuck
with the same study routine I had in my first year. Then I failed again.
I continued doing the same thing over and over again,
expecting a change somehow. And then it
struck me, its not going to work.
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Fine, Pinterest was my go to place for inspiration. And
this just struck a chord. I tried different study methods. I worked with index
cards, typing my own reviewers, reading, listening to recordings, etc. Up to
now, I still haven’t figured out the best way for me to study. But Im doing
better. Much better than before.
My grades improved slightly. I was still failing a few
exams here and there, but I was getting used to it in a sense that it wasn’t so
depressing enough to stop me from studying again with full force.
I used to be so envious of several of my classmates who
seemed to get the hang of everything. They were getting really good grades,
they were asking all the right questions during discussion, they were LEARNING.
While some of us were on the sidelines trying to learn how to tie our own
shoelaces, the toppers ( classmates who were excelling) were running about,
executing complex drills and the like.
I knew that they studied before hand, that they took the
time to review their basics, understood it, and just related it the present
lesson, but, I just couldn’t do the same thing.
No matter how hard I tried, I just couldn’t seem to get
the hang of it. I wanted to become the best, I wanted to perform and excel, but
I just didn’t know how.
I still don’t know how. But one thing’s for sure, I.
WILL.NOT.SETTLE.FOR.COMFORT.OR.MEDIOCRITY.
I may not be one of the smartest, or brightest in the
class. But I will not settle for just being one of those people who tell
themselves that “Its ok if I don’t do well now, I’ll just do better in the
future, when Im a doctor. At least I’ll get to do things my way.”
Never become these people. Its tempting to think about
it. Its even more tempting to live it and accept it as it is because so many
people are doing it. But don’t do it.
I’ve met a few people , and some lecturers who proved
this wrong. They may not have been the smartest of the bunch, but they worked
like hell to get where they are.
We should do the same. We’re going to be doctors. Nobody
wants a half-baked doctor.
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